If I gotta leave today, I must be disappointed. I don’t finish anything yet, both mission & business.
About mission, I forsake everything to make it done & take many years. Just the verse “Let Your Kingdom come, Let your will be done on earth as it is in heaven”
About business, it’s just beginning but quite well. I want to take care my mom, my employee in soon. I just dont want to be poor worker of God who ask someone for financial support all the time.
But now I can’t eat, cant breathe well & heart beats very fast. It seems heavy things try to make me down.
If I gotta go before I know,
I probably go with the sorrow & disappointment. I’m not ready for it.
Last 15 years I was happy to go without any worry.
I think I will die for Christ oneday, never think about many sicknesses, but I’m in pain & suffering.
When 2015 begined I believe my life has change in a good way & I’m travelling out of the desert.
But now I thank God. At least, I passed last year & live longer than I think.
I didn’t do many dreams yet.
Anyway, darkness tries to pull me.
I’ve fought … I’m fighting.
Mom … I really love you…
No one I ever met can love me like you.
God … I love you…
My time is running out to meet you there. It’s glad in my regret.
Goodbye & Hello.