Don’t know why I felt tired until I cried yesterday. I neither weary from my hard worksssss nor my long time with computer but my deep is about men, myself. I do feel desperate for God, really need His embrace
I also got a book yesterday, best picture bible I ever had. First story I attend to see is Daniel bcuz I like many scenes such as prophecy of statue, 3 friends in the furnice, lion’s den. Also I love scences of David, faith of Noah, calling of Abraham. Finally, I stop at story of Joseph. This’s a story make me cry many times but it encourages me as well. I hope someday God will help me can say as him that "All pass is all His plan"
In the morning, I long to worship & meet the Lord at the throne of mercy. He needs to touch me too, then I’ve found Him with full of His presence. Sermon time made me think about this month of last 2 years. I had many reasons to resign from full-time work but in conclusion … it’s the calling of Jesus. I thought of one day I sat on mailbus & looked at sky & realize about the verse in Joel "The sun shall be turned into darkness & the moon into blood, before the coming of the great and awesome day of the LORD" The question popped-up in my head "What if Jesus will come tomorrow, What can I do now?" Its answer inspired me to resign at once. Now is 2 years ago. I ever begged Him to let me not turn back but many times I felt hopeless from damnations. Anyways, I’m still on that way.
I’m really happy everytime I talk to my pastor. I receive many good things by his speaking & get God’s messages[Rehma] from him! Today, he teaches us about the will of God. It flashed to my soul about talents & spiritual gifts when he said talents can narrow down our ministry. I’m sure since the first day that God call me to be. I rarely dream about spiritual way but I ever got confirmation by dreaming once times. I live to tell the world about Jesus by His Power!
In the mids of last year, I expect something from God & His direction but He gave me the answers through book from biblical colleage. That is … sometime, however you seek, God won’t let you know directly or definitely but you’re in control. You will know later what you choose is God’s will. Umm… I think maybe
If we talk about peace which confirms the will of God after the word in bible … I’m confused a little bit cuz I think God told me many times about my ministry but my peace still not calm down